I wish I wasn't so forward.

So the whole situation between me and Bill sucks majorly. I like him a lot but he's not sure how he feels. I hoped that getting to hang out for once by ourselves would change things or help him decide how he feels about me but that didn't change a thing. I wanted to ask him but I didn't know how else to word it beside being blunt and to the point and then we continued or conversation and I wound up telling him that I can't help but be nervous around him and the instant I said that I regretted it and apologized like crazy but he said it was fine and everything but I still felt like complete crap.